Friday, May 23, 2008
Memoirs of a Melissa
Speaking of which, this entire year did not make sense to me. Since the last day of 6th Grade, I've written reflections of my school years (yes. I'm pretty lame.), and this year I did the same. But when I tried to summarize this year in words, all that came to me was "HUH?" I'm still just so confused and dazed. Hm maybe I'm being a little melodramatic.
But out of the huge blurry cloud of memories, the weirdest pop up. Like right now, I'm thinking about how I ticked the waiter guy off during formal. Something about water...sheesh, of all things. Now I'm picturing myself dozing off during Euro, my head angled towards the side so I wouldn't offend Mrs. K. Which makes me think about the AP exam and how I think I almost passed out after it because I held my breath writing the last essay in 10 minutes.
Flying volleyballs. An abusive coach making his girls cry. Freaking out when I thought I was late for PSATs because the door was inconveniently closed. Papers...lots and lots of papers, documents, notes, and a lack of notebooks. A nightmare of a locker. Intense algebra tests. Sitting on tables; Mr. Loh telling me to get off tables. Major stress. Sitting outside on the coldest nights of winter to paint or pray under a starry night sky. Confusion. Gossipping late into the night. Dropping baby bowling ball and lying on the grass during the All Dayer. Too much love. Watching the sunset and playing basketball while we should have been inside that stuffy room working. Worrying. Eight hour dress shopping. Playing a stuck up girl and a sold out theatre performance. Breaking that crucible in chem.
In the past 10 minutes, those are the incidents that pop into mind. Goodness gracious, this year was just indescribable for me. But it's not all the way over yet, so maybe I'll try then.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
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What a terrible way to start an entry.
I think this was the first weekend in MILLENIUMS that I had absolutely nothing to do. No homework. No FIRST, theatre, LEOS, Euro, project, or whatever meeting. No essays. No tests. I didn't even have to do laundry because the washing machine broke on Friday, and my dear mother did 5 loads this morning after it was fixed yesterday. Wow. Okay, there's like finals to study for, but still, like I can ever study for anything early. So instead, I went shopping for 6 hours, played hours of Alchemy, and spent the rest of my wonderful weekend wallowing in my bed. And the weather cooled down! If only all weekends were like this.
But then again, I'm ridiculously bored. So I don't know.
Friday, May 16, 2008
It's Very Hot, And I'm Bored.
[IF]
If you can keep your head when all about you
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
--Rudyard Kipling
Saturday, May 10, 2008
My Sister and I Were Creative This Year
Friday, May 9, 2008
FINALLY, I CAN BREATHE!
- Reread the entire book.
- Start reading the book, shift to Cliffsnotes, then Princeton Review, and back to the book.
- Assume that the majority of the test will be on modern times. Omgosh.
- Not cram hours before test. It is better to cram. Really.
- Panic.
- Hold my breath while writing essays. I think I was going to faint after the test.
But I'm glad that's over with !
Don't walk ahead of me; I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend. - Someone Cool
I can't imagine living in a world without hope and laughter and friends and the ability to feel happy, sad, angry, embarassed, or whatever the emotions may be. I think I take for granted that I can feel...even though they're bad feelings. I mean, some people can't. I wonder, if those people are unable to feel emotions; I wonder if they can feel God's love.
And I wonder what I'm going to do for the rest of my life...
But for now, I'll just bask in the warm knowledge and reassurance that God's love is great and His mercies are never ending. Unconditional. No matther how many times I screw up; He'll always be there. Lifting us up.
-Everything usually works out in the end; that's what I hold on to.-